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Someone I love recently annoyed me. They thoroughly pissed me off actually. I was angry at them and then angry at myself for being angry at them. That’s the worst kind of anger. They behaved as they always did … I was angry because it wasn’t what I needed. The gap … well … the gap between who I need and who they are … that’s where disappointment, frustration and anger form. I needed help and they couldn’t or wouldn’t offer it. Well - that’s my point of view. It’s possible

Is everyone else’s calendar a mess these days? I go between periods of insanely busy to periods of not being busy enough. The swing isn’t ideal … at first the non busy days feel nice … I can catch my breath, I can relax, I can get caught up. The problem? I don’t get caught up - I procrastinate, or … I create projects - I go all in - so I can’t quit part way through (read: painting the hallway, deep cleaning my space etc.). I’m in a busy period now. Productive busy - I’m good

Anyone else finding themselves in an odd frame of mind lately? More and more I find myself gravitating towards weirder … towards silly. I wouldn’t argue I’m mainstream as a general rule … Weird would probably be a good adjective most of the time. I’m drawn towards the interesting … in my home design and decor … my social outings … a little less weird with fashion but still leaning towards interesting. I’m seeing these crazy “girls night” reels all over my for me page lately

I’m in one of those moods this morning … dancing in the car, dancing while washing dishes … I want to move, I want to sing, I want to dance. Today it is one song … no particular reason … The music just makes me smile … makes me want to move. Some songs I’m hooked after hearing the first three to five notes. The song might be terrible - in which case I try to track down the instrumental version … and sometimes the song is just … magic - I love it when that happens. Turning up

Detail orientation is not one of my core strengths. Don’t misunderstand - I can become hyper focussed when I need to, and I do. The key is “hyper focus” … details are exhausting. One of the things I’ve been putting off - but know needs/needed to be done - cleaning up the ceiling and the two closet doors in the hallway. Have I mentioned I don’t love painting? I love the finished look … I don't love the process. The ceiling had spots I had hit with either the brush or roller

I was out at a hockey game last night with friends - it is the final round of games, game 3. Our team had 2 wins and was at home … Spoiler - they lost. While I don’t play hockey, I’ve been around it enough to know what good hockey looks like. Facts: Our team is the technically better team. They see plays, they play strategically, they pass, they talk to each other. The other team wanted to win more. Last night - heart beat skill. In fairness, the refs made some unbelievabl

While I’m over my cold - the congestion is lingering. My massage therapist also does cupping - which, when congested, feels amazing. The problem, I don’t go daily for massages - my benefits won’t cover that frequency! So, in the rabbit hole that is Amazon, I discovered a small cupping kit. Which I bought and never used. Until this week. Some things I don’t expect to use daily, or weekly … I have them to use when I need them. My netty pot - I use when I’m congested or if si

Curating a space takes patience. Which is annoying … It's frustrating when you want it completed now … so I can enjoy it. Enjoying the process is a work in progress. Clearly. While I battle with my impatience … I love that this is the time that I bought something of my own … Things in the household space are moving towards weird, interesting, having personalities. While I’ve always layered old with new as it relates to furnishings … I am enjoying the idea of this in lightin

I recently stumbled upon an interesting article about migraines. The gist of the article suggested that migraines were the result of the body reorganizing itself to accommodate a larger, more authentic version of itself. The migraine happens when the part of me that wants to expand and evolve meets the part that’s afraid. The migraine is the teacher. A part of me buys this and a part of me doesn’t. I think the part of this that resonated is the narrative or self-talk I cho

I’ve been writing this blog for just shy of three years. I publish on Sunday evenings - without fail. Some weeks - I’ve been driving on a Sunday morning in an effort to clear my mind, to find something to write about. Some weeks, I have several ideas and the words just pour out. Some weeks I think, maybe it’s ok to miss a week or maybe it’s time - to stop … Yet the ideas inevitably come. The walking away feels easy - but not right. The truth is … I don’t always have words

I saw a reel the other day … one that stuck, that resonated. She was asking if you’ve ever had an overwhelming desire to quit your job, start over or move countries … um … yes … all the time … well apparently this is prediction error. (I’m grossly oversimplifying this - the full instagram reel is here ). When you google this - the simplified explanation is “error = actual - predicted.” Note - this is when I wish high school science had been way more interesting … as a child

Have you ever had one of those weeks where you experience all the emotions? Like, every single one? That’s been my week. I received news late last week that layoffs were happening where I worked in a past life. Someone had been impacted that had made my life unbelievably difficult. I felt validated. Seen. Heard. Finally. I also felt like a horrible human being for feeling any and all of those things - this is, afterall, someone's life. Fast forward to early this week …

The link between music and memory never ceases to amaze me. There are songs that instantly put me in a good mood and others - I can’t change the channel fast enough. I love music … I have music playing in the background all the time. I used to listen to music when I studied … I still listen when I need to focus at work, when I’m driving, working out, cleaning - it doesn’t matter what I’m doing … I prefer to have music in the background. I have different preferences dependi

I am in this weird headspace … this sort of nesting mentality. I feel the need to clarify - I am not pregnant. I realize the term nesting is associated with expectant mothers. I’m using it because it’s the only way I know to verbalize what I’m currently feeling and experiencing. I felt this a little last year after moving into my current space … it felt normal … new home, the need to set it up and organize it in a way that felt welcoming, warm, etc. etc. The feeling pas

This week felt long … it felt heavy … I don’t know the what’s or why’s … I just know combined with all that sludge there was an underlying anger, I even want to say despair … but not in a “why me” kind of way - more of a “how” kind of way … while I don’t normally do anger well, this week it got me through the week, it fuelled motivation, drive and busy-ness. I realize this reads very doom and gloom …. Or here’s the number to a really good therapist (spoiler - I have that nu