Mini Adventures

At the start of the year I had this idea of what some of my big goals would look like - my life changing moments, my misogi - and some of the mini adventures I’d take along the way. 

Needless to say, here we are in May and those plans took a hard left turn.  I’m not saying it’s a bad thing but what’s the expression?  Life is what happens when you’re busy making other plans?

I took a spa day in February … Maybe March?  I debated spending the money … but did it anyway.  I let myself relax … I went alone … I needed the time to decompress and I’m glad I took it.  I need another day … not necessarily at the spa … but away, outside my space, my routines, my day to day life.  I need a mini adventure.  

A friend - and fellow planner - sent a list out for parties and adventures …. This was back in January.  At the time I grabbed the month of May, I was thinking of a road trip with some fun stops along the way, some good music, car snacks and a scenic hike at the end.  Low cost, good vibes … 

Truthfully … I had forgotten about it but it popped back into my consciousness early last week.  I need it.  So, I’m going to float it past the others and see if they need it too.  Obviously I need to do some research, price it out, figure out interesting stops along the way etc. but I need this.  

Fresh air. Movement. Friends.  Basically I need balance.  

While I’ve been getting up in the morning and moving, my energy is low and I’m tired.  No reason.  Just tired.  Which is usually a good sign I need to change something - or I’m getting sick, but I don’t think I’m getting sick.  So … Mini-adventure it is.  

I’m excited about the idea, which is always a good sign.  Maybe it’s the warmer weather?  Maybe I’m just tired or being solely focussed on moving and all things related - while exciting, it’s also exhausting.  Maybe I just want to be settled and focussed on my life and not where I live?  Or maybe it’s a combination of all of it? 

At some point I would like to have a housewarming, but being ready for that feels like it could be months away, so I’m putting my focus elsewhere. 

I like driving … music on, windows down … it feels very summertime esque.  Destination or no destination there is something relaxing about driving in the summer.  Random stops, friends, that seems like the perfect way to spend the day.  

To be honest, I feel like so much is on hold, or paused or stalled, that doing something, anything from the list of things I wanted to do this year, somehow feels like it will be good for me.  A reminder that not everything is stalled or forgotten or not happening, that somehow, I still have a life.  

I realize this sounds like I’m complaining, I’m not.  I’m low energy and that can lead to disengaging and I don’t want that.  I need a redirect, so I’m giving myself one.  

I’m used to having things to look forward to - a busy social calendar, mine feels a little sparse … I don’t love that.  I’m not interested in busy for busy sake, more about what things I want to spend my time doing, who I want to spend my time with and then do those things.  Some things I can do by myself and be perfectly happy, others, well, they are just more fun with friends. 

The idea of planning something, looking forward to something … I’m down for that.  

It’s the shifting focus … reminding myself of what’s important and where to focus my time and energy … sometimes deep breaths and a hard left turn are just what life is screaming out for. 

A change in the weather always helps.  It’s the gentle reminder to step back and look back at patterns and habits, to tweak what needs modifying, let go of what isn’t working and to check the horizon to ensure I’m still on course.  

The good news … I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be.  I didn’t slip into unhealthy or old patterns while adding moving to my load.  To stay the course - well, modifications to some of my routines are needed but modifications are the logical next step and not overly challenging.  

It feels like I’m coming back to life … Or maybe, it’s more that I’m looking up and seeing where I’ve landed.  While it doesn’t feel from from where I was, it also feels insanely far … I can’t explain it any better than that but, I feel like if you’ve been there, you know. 

So … Here's to a new month … warmer weather … and mini adventures.